You literates are in danger of losing me.
You may not give a whit about climate change
(considering all the trees
non-consensually martyred for your analyses)
And maybe you don’t care about me leaving –
– But I didn’t care about the color of Doctor T.J. Eckleberg’s eyes
while being slashed by the rain of a price-cut Friday
when nobody came to buy second-hand dresses
still bristled with the skin cells of a madwoman
And I had to read all about it anyway
and sit through a mind-puréeing discussion
of how Fitzgerald employs the toppling heirloom clock
as a vehicle for his assertion that time only grinds forward, leaving behind
not even the desperately still-young who cling to some dream that was planted in their heads by a nationalist gardener who never returned to water it because of the war or the color yellow –
So I’ll make you listen, you bespectacled ghosts, even though
that my heart like a caged bird beats against my blood-thrumming walls
bangs erratic between the clock’s clicks
screams for sound in a room which is quiet to a negative degree,
where whispers are sucked into nostrils and shoved down throats
until we’re a bunch of silken-gagged skeletons still
staring into screens and papers.
You Eden of erudition.
I thought I loved you,
or maybe the latter syntax was inverted
I thought it was the rainbows in your glass cup
that made my heart flutter when you held it halfway to my lips
but now the glass
drops with a
crash on the floor
and I comprehend my heart was only shivering
in tremulous hilarity before breaking.
In the biology department, no one asks you to write about broken hearts; they can only be deformed, the blood vessels congested, the membrane lacerated.
Image credits in order of appearance:
By August Holmberg – Illustrierter Katalog der III. Internationalen Kunstausstellung (Münchener Jubiläumsausstellung) im Königl. Glaspalaste zu München, München 1888 (Digitalisat der BSB), Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=17517987
By Racanlan (Own work) [CC BY-SA 4.0 (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/4.0)%5D, via Wikimedia Commons